I did quite a bit of research about this phase of the prep work and everyone I heard from said that days 1-3 were the hardest. Many spoke about just how difficult they were.
As of my last post, I had not yet hit day 3. I was surprised to find that the first three days were not that difficult at all, not in the grand scheme of things - heck, not in the major scheme of things. They were an inconvenience, and adjustment. Frankly I was surprised how well they went by.
For me, day 4 was the worst. That was the day when I was craving good food - Nice ham sandwich, steamed broccoli... several things really. I celebrated by getting a spicy soup and eating just the broth. I think I was going nuts on just sweet flavors. That's ok. Now I know how to deal with that.
The last 2 days have been pretty good. I'm getting all 4 drinks per day. I found a new flavor to try - cookies and creme powder by the good folks at Muscle Milk.
I have also spent the last 2 days helping clean stuff up at home and do a complete move of stuff from one room to another. It kept me busy and just doing life.
I don't know how much I am losing if any... but I am in ketosis. My breath is really starting to smell bad. I think I might buy stock in Listerine - their breath strips are saving me!
So let's talk about where I am mentally.
I'm doing pretty well. The reality of this is starting to set in. I'm not at the "What am I doing..." stage. I'm in the middle. I'm starting to prep some information for loved ones if something happens and I don't make it through surgery. I know that there is a lot, and I would hate for my decision to cause them to scramble through everything and try to figure out what it is that I have, where it is, and who I owe.
It's an interesting kind of reality check. It's also nice to have this stuff organized for future... because who really knows when their time is...
On the good side, I feel happy, well, even tempered. I have energy, and I feel ready to take on the next chapter of my life.
Today I'm craving sausage and eggs. I really want some breakfast food.
Instead I drank a strawberry protein drink and gave a nod to the fridge on my way past. :) It felt good to be able to acknowledge the craving without giving in.
I know that new habits are formed in 21 days. For me, having 2 weeks before surgery and the time after surgery to cleanse old habits is going to be a good thing. I'm excited for the new eating habits.
OH! speaking of which, I found the CUTEST baking pan at Walmart. It is tiny loaf pan. about 1/4c capacity, rectangular. Perfect for mini whatever (I'm thinking meatloaf... once I get to that stage.) but anything goes in there.
I've also been saving the veggies from the soup I'm eating. I'm turning them into mush, putting them in ice cube trays and freezing them. That way I have something prepared when I get to that point.
I want to succeed! I figure the best way to do that is to go out, do what I do and keep my diet restrictions in mind. I don't want those around me to think they can't eat in front of me. It's not torture. I may want some, but the smells have been enough for now. My goal is too big for those little details to get in my way.
Is it all easy? No. I have to say not. The other day, I had to leave the house because they were about to kick up dust. While I was out, food was calling my name. not just any call, a siren's call.
I got what I needed and went home. That was hard. It would have been so easy to go through Arbys and get the roast beef (which is exactly what I wanted...) and get back on track. I reminded myself of what I am trying to do, and if I do break the diet, I put my goal in jeopardy. I'm not willing to do it. That being said, I think this is very worth it and I'm excited to see the new me.
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